finally came to post again

had been through lots of events during this period of time. came back from nco camp. wat a torture is that camp. but on the other hand, had made a number of friends. those friends were the ones who will help you when u are in trouble or whenu really need help. i also when to my aunt's house. played cluedo with my cousins and their girlfriend. that game is real fun!! should try playing if u haven't . fall in love with the song cha soo kyung from cruel temptation theme song. that song let me thought about my life. reallylife is torturous. some people who appears nice, actually can be the one who backstab u causing to be ........ from hearing of all of the experiences my family faces and the problems i have gone through. i only can say that never trust anyone even the one who u like greatly as they may be the one who hurt u the most.
i really thank my mom for her chrismas gift. mom, i really like it alot.

to people who one to know the feeling of hurt. it is like being in the darkness with no light being shone. only u are there to save yourself. no one an save u. all the things u can't tell anyone. its secret that can really be hard to keep.even if u want to say, it is difficult.

i want to say sorry to ***** *** for not telling u the truth.... i have being regretting it for years.. . i don"tknow if u will read my blog but i am truely sorry.
u must be hating me alot. for my chrismas wish, i hope that u will forgive me.

i am back from torture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just came back from bnco course. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so the damn tiring. everybody herre ache there ache. keep on kanna scolding. have to run here and march there. want to die liao. once i reach back home, its already 10+.and i woke up at5. it is totally shit. still have to go for exam which is sat. and the camp which is from 17 - 20. i am going to die soon. but this camp alos quite fun lar. got made quite a no. of new friends. after nco pass out ceremony, i am promoted!!! to become a non-commissioned officer. then maybe next year will go to anco. my grp columba rocks!!!!! keep on get scolding because i don noe why too. the officers damn fierce. give orders quite complicated.but, it doesn't matter now. i had gone through the training already. ya!!!!! now only hope that the camp is fun. the camp fire theme is gaga night. quite excited. now, my whole body is in pain so will post more when i feel okay. byeeeeee

so happy!!!

today, i spent time at home wrapping my textbooks for school. yesterday, i went to watch 2012 with qiao. that show totally rocks , quite touching too. (being emotional now haha) then i went to mac with qiao and her mom. we chat for a while then went to library . just receive my bnco news..... so worried..... yesterday i also had a quarrel with my mom. haiz.. shall not elaborate anyway, i don think so that anyone can understand my feelings. how i wish that i an have someone with me to talk to. if there is no one i am really afraid that i will turn crazy and go to quiet mode. which means talking to no one at all. okay lets change subject ... if not it is gonna to be boring.

i heard ppl saying that new moon is nice to watch and some they say that it is not nice. maybe i will not the movie in cinema but wait till it is upload on youtube. i feel like watching a horror movie. is there anyone who wants to invite me to watch a horror show in vcd or dvd form? tag in my tag board if u want to .next week will be my bnco camp. wish me goodluck!!!!